Obviously I have not arted like I said I would. Whoops.
That Slate PC I got, I gave it to my brother, who actually is an artist. He paints and shit. Good for him. I bought a Surface Pro though, those things are nice. I do math on it.
Why do I do math you might ask? Oh I forgot to tell you. I'm a budding Mechanical Engineer now.
I realize I don't come on here anymore. I feel that its because I am no longer depressed. Oh yeah I didn't tell you that either. I don't THINK I did. Yeah, I was hardcore depressed for a number of years. Like, probably a decade. Flipping shit. I think the art was less about creativity than it was a coping mechanism. I'm not that creative. Clearly. I draw a lot of the same shit over.
Anyway over the course of some undisclosed time after I drew Sketch Quest I started trying to figure out what to do with my life and Engineering ticked a lot of boxes. Blame Tony Stark, but that job is going to be cool no matter what I do. 3D Printing and Virtual interfaces, LeapMotion controllers and Digitizing pens means high tech is going to be my office. Fine by me.
With a plan in mind I also started looking at Me. I hated myself (as you do, when you're depressed). Over the last couple years though I've met one or two really special people that helped me uncover some truths about myself, help me pin down what I want out of life, etc. - last year I lost about 80lbs. I could surely stand to lose another 20lbs but that was a hell of an accomplishment. I'd like to thank the Academy, and the elliptical.
Looking back on who I was before I started this transition, its almost night and day. As a singleton you'd expect me to be miserable and lonely, but no. Because you learn to legit love yourself at some point. When you go to bed you realize life is going just fine. Besides it is so not worth it to just agree to some of these crazy requests I have gotten for flings just for the sake of it. Especially that one. She is cray. Like, spongebob crazy. No. I will surely know when something right comes along. No rush, I've plenty to do with my time. Obviously, you come across those couple people where it seems like "damn, if only we had met 5 years ago", but that was the entire point I made to myself going into this: that I was only going to run into that sentiment more and more if I was constantly in a rut. The thing is too, this isn't one of those peaks of elation (or I HOPE its not). I feel careful not to call it that, but I've felt like this for about a year now, and been improving this way for over 2 years, with a gradual progression upward. As if I'm really out of it, and it's not just a phase thats been dicking me around. I feel Happy.
For the art, I have since I last checked in and even before that, kept myself so busy my mind and body haven't wandered there. I play video games sure, but I don't sit and watch TV and doodle or anything. I work full time, I school full time, and when I'm not doing those things I keep my brain busy on other shit or I help friends out with their own problems (which has always been fun, to a point). When/if I ever get to a nice stable point where I have a ton of spare time, I would like to crapshoot for making a cosplay of one of the robot designs in a couple years though. For the most part though, the drawing just doesn't seem as necessary to me as it used to. I might fire off a doodle every once in a while when I'm super bored or really rocking out to a particular song, but its just more of the same, and not worth submission.
So as it turns out, the pen is no longer for doodling, its for taking notes and doing hardcore math. If you thought Calculus was a scary word, I'm looking at you and thinking "Awe that's cute."
I'm going to sign off now before I promise I will submit more art "real soon" etc, when I know I won't. -Over
Listening to: My Songs Know What You Did in The Dark
Reading: The Internet
Watching: Deep Space 9
Playing: FTL - Faster Than Light
Eating: Frozen Yogurt